
(Kitchen wall, Students House)
I think I've mentioned here before, in my basket ball/cheerleaders related post that although I can now understand some Spanish (when people speak slowly)(usually for my benefit), I can't speak it ('yet', I would add, on the days I'm feeling more optimistic). Hence, going out meeting people, or even staying in with PIL requires effort.
On some days, making an effort or understanding conversation is not enough. It could be the the cumulative affect, or my feeling of exclusion. The latter could be due to several reasons and include: my inability to speak/participate, being with others who are simply uninterested in me, E not being able to translate because everyone is talking at the same time or just forgetting to do it. Whatever it is - it's totally crap and makes me want to do a few or all of the following depending on how progressive I'm feeling:
(1) Stand up, shake my fist and shout "Enough!" and storm off
(2) Scratch and prick the sofa (secretly)
(3) Be diligent about learning Spanish so I can speak it fluently (and while I'm at it -German and French too)
Anyhow, today was such a day. What I did do instead was to have a strop, go out for an hours walk by myself which led to a shopping spree at a German home furnishing store where I bought a few pastel coloured table mats and kitchen cloths for our new apartment.
It's not all bad. Sometimes, the conversations are totally in accordance to my interests and wishes. For example, this morning we had a second meeting with a medical doctor who had served in Afghanistan just talking about the ongoing conflict resolution efforts there. This came about after I had mentioned to FIL and E that I planned to do a case-study for my term paper and couldn't decide on Iraq, Afghanistan or the Middle East. FIL got in touch with a medical doctor he knew and I had an appointment with E acting as translator.
It's nice to be distracted or kept sane by my work AND have a furnishing shop nearby selling lovely things.